Since Saturday I've been in a haze. Every time that I can physically make it over into the NICU they give me a boost of good news followed with some stressful news. The pain from surgery seemed to be worse than others because of the shock my body went into before it even started along with the Symphysis Pubis Diastasis (Trying saying that three times fast) I was seeing a chiropractor every week for. It kept me in bed most of my stay in L & D. I even stayed an extra day. Each passing day I thought it would get better but it was more of an up and down scale. A hit or miss.
The first day all I wanted to do was go see her but I couldn't even get out of the bed. Completely helpless. There was so much that I really had no clue about in regards to cesarean sections. Such as the pitocin drip they put you on after the surgery to induce contractions. Because thats what every woman wants. You to slice a giant hole in their uterus then give them a drug that causes contractions. Mine weren't really even contractions it was more like one long continuous contraction that lasted the entire time. It's the worst pain I've ever experienced in my entire life. Why someone would every elect to have one done is beyond me.
Along with the surgical pain that I was suffering from my Symphysis Pubis Diastasis got three times worse. Its a separation of the pubic bone that I've had this entire pregnancy. The amount of relaxin my body released was too high, it was like the part during labor when your pubic bone separates to let the baby through. Except mine started at 3 months gestation. She felt deep in my hips. I could barely walk because of it. Now I can't sit for too long, or walk. Laying is the only thing that helps.
But enough wining. The point here was that Lil' JaMonkey on the other hand is blowing me away. What I was told would be a month long visit may not end up being that long. She is so strong. Each day a new tube has been removed from her sweet frail body. Her SVT is being controlled through IV medications. She is hitting Preemie milestones early but the nurses have told me not to get my hopes up. Yes she is doing great but each day is a new day.