Today I’ve swapped blogs with Nicole Pyles over at The World of My Imagination. Check out my guest post Identify Your Biggest Challenge and Turn it into a Question.
In June of this year, I graduated from college. And for the first time in a long time, I didn’t have classes. I wasn’t looking forward to the fall when a new school year would start. I had been released from my title as a college student. I was now a college graduate. It has been an amazing feeling; very different from most of my summertime experiences.
When I was younger (pre-college days), I hated summer vacation. Really, I did. You would think three months of nothing to do would be wonderful, but I have always had trouble with that much free time and usually by the time August rolled around, I was in tears, I was so restless. As I got older (post-high school days), summer vacations were usually filled with working and classes and that took care of my restless self. So when I graduated this June, I not only completed my time in college, I also completed my work contract with my college and became unemployed.
So, while I have spent most of my summer job hunting, I can’t help but think about the significance of this summer.
I have thought about the changes in my life since I walked across the stage and got my diploma. I have completed my dream of getting my degree. It has been a dream as long as I could remember and I did it. I wasn’t sure how I would do it, to be honest. My mom is a single mom and we didn’t have the money to pay for college. She 100% supported my dream to go, but…we just didn’t know we would make it happen. Well, jump me ahead a few years, I did it. I got my degree.
And it’s weird not being a student anymore and not looking forward to the anticipation of a new school year. I don’t think it’s quite hit me yet and I wonder if I will miss it most when fall comes around. So far, though I have had a lot of new beginnings this summer…
A first for me was the start of my new blog, The World of My Imagination. I had been inspired to create it after having to keep up a site while being a mentor for my college. On the website I created for my job as a mentor, I regularly talked about my work experiences, while also adding creative content and improving the appearances of my little website. I actually enjoyed it and I realized that blogging would be a great extension of that experience.
Not only that, I have finally found the time (and energy) to write again. While the stress and frustration of the job hunt takes much of my time, I have made time for this other life long dream of mine – to write and to be published.
And I have been more forgiving of my writing self than I have been in the past. Usually, when I would finish up my quarter and have time off, I expected that I would write, but I usually didn’t. I would always attribute this to the anticipation of a new term starting, but I didn’t really have the patience for this reasoning. I just wanted to have the energy to write…but I didn’t. So, I got frustrated with this, and what resulted was a healthy dose of writer’s block (although, I have been told countless times that I shouldn’t believe in writer’s block; so let’s just say that I would have a period of time when I my creative self was on pause).
But this summer has been different. I have looked for work, most of the time, but I have made the time to write. And maybe that has softened the blow of saying goodbye to my days as a college student. My dream to become published has been with me for as long as I could remember. And this summer has taught me something incredible that I hope to always keep with me. My writing self may have been on pause while I was in college, but it was never gone completely. It was always there, waiting for just the right moment when it knew it was time.
This summer, I completed my long time dream of getting my degree, and now, like a hibernating bear coming out to see if the snow has really gone away, my writing self is taking a ginger step forward and seeing if it’s time for her yet. And you know what?
I think it might be.
And this time, I have patience.
Nicole Pyles is a 20 Something blogger that swapped blogs with me as a part of Blog Swap 9. She's a recent graduate,a writer, and currently living in Unemployment Land. Check out her blog The World of My Imagination where she offers up her inspirations to write and her experiences in this weird, troubling, and amazing published and unpublished world we live in.